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Today we had our video interview for the PR campaign for the hospital.  It was fun, hard and exciting all at the same time.  Hard in that I had to talk about when baby {M} had to go on the vent and how hard it was to watch him struggle and just want to be held.  The 2-3 worst days of my life.  Hands down.  That horrific memory has been seared into my brain.  I cried during the audio interview and during the video interview when that came up.  I hope no mother has to see her child on a ventilator.  

Anyway, after the interview was over we went to the birthplace & NICU to see our favorite nurses!  We ran into Anitra, Andy, Kelly, Sarah, Julia, Ericka, Ginella and several others who were so amazing during our lengthy stay.  They were all so amazed at how great the twins look.  You have to remember, they saw them last when they were very sick, tiny little babies.  They were overjoyed to see how well they were doing.  Andy is actually the reason we're doing this campaign.  She's awesome!  

The babies had a blast getting loved on by the nurses, they slept off all the excitement on the drive home.  In fact, they napped in their car seats for like an hour after we got home.  Unheard of!  They woke up in a tizzy though.  See pictoral evidence below.

I just wanted some cute pics of them all dolled up.  They look darling, do they not?  Little Miss {A} is just the sweetest little thing in these dresses.  I loooooove having a boy AND a girl, but little girl's clothes are just so much fun.  I'm thankful that I get to have it both ways :)  {A} is the epitome of girly girl, so we have so much fun with clothes.  I can't wait to shop with her someday!  We'll be big buddies!

After a bottle and some Momma snuggles, all was right with the world.  I love that I can comfort these two little stinks just by talking or looking at them the right way.  I'm Momma and its the best.  Currently they are both napping on my chest.  I'm about to join them!

I hope you had a fabulous day!  We've had some nasty thunder storms lately.  Huge hail and tons of lightning/thunder.  Not really common for ole' Colorado.  It was cold and rainy today so we bundled up in our warmest jammies and we're being lazy.  Love it!

NICU update

We've been spending every waking minute in the NICU with M&A, so I haven't had time to update.  M is off the vent and on CPAP.  Yay!  He's making big progress :)  The NICU nurses tell me that white baby boy's do the worst in the NICU, they call it wimpy white boy syndrome.  I just hope he gets the hang of feeding quickly so we can bring him home SOON.  There's nothing more heartbreaking that seeing your child cry and there's nothing you can do about it.  He just wants US and we can't pick him up and comfort him.  We talk to him and hold his sweet little head and that seems to help, but he just needs us.  Also, knowing they cry when we are not there is equally as hard.  We are supposed to be the ones who pick them up and make it better and we can't right now.  Leaving the hospital every night is just about the hardest thing I've ever had to do.  I'm having a VERY hard time with that right now.

A is doing fantastic as well.  She's not on any oxygen, she's breathing room air.  She is eating about 27 ml of breast milk at each feeding.  I'm pumping for them (although she's the only one eating right now, he's on lipids) and the nurses store it in a fridge there in the NICU.  At least she (and eventually he) are getting the "good stuff" from me when I can't be there to feed them.  They both were on photo-therapy lights for the last couple days, but their biliruben went down, so they are done with that right now.  We get to feed and hold (and kiss and love) A a lot, which is amazing, but its so hard not to hold her brother.  He had an umbilical IV put into his belly button when he was on the vent and until they take it out we can't hold him.  Its in an artery and apparently if it gets pulled out he can hemmorage (sp?).  We don't want to take that chance.  

I'm having a hard time with them being there.  I know they need to be there until they are strong enough to breath/eat well, but it kills me.  They are 6 days old today and I want them HOME.  The house is lonely without them and I feel like I just cry all evening after we leave them.  In fact, I know I do.  Hardest thing ever.  Pumping is tough because it reminds me of my babies that are currently being cared for by someone else.  Tough pill to swallow.  Please keep the 4 of us in your prayers.  For M & A to make lots of great progress in the next couple days (and hopefully come home) and for Momma and Daddy to be strong while they are in there.  M and I are beside ourselves waiting for them.  I hope all of this seems like a blip in time in just a few short weeks, but for now its the hardest thing we've ever done.  

NICU update

We've been spending every waking minute in the NICU with M&A, so I haven't had time to update.  M is off the vent and on CPAP.  Yay!  He's making big progress :)  The NICU nurses tell me that white baby boy's do the worst in the NICU, they call it wimpy white boy syndrome.  I just hope he gets the hang of feeding quickly so we can bring him home SOON.  There's nothing more heartbreaking that seeing your child cry and there's nothing you can do about it.  He just wants US and we can't pick him up and comfort him.  We talk to him and hold his sweet little head and that seems to help, but he just needs us.  Also, knowing they cry when we are not there is equally as hard.  We are supposed to be the ones who pick them up and make it better and we can't right now.  Leaving the hospital every night is just about the hardest thing I've ever had to do.  I'm having a VERY hard time with that right now.

A is doing fantastic as well.  She's not on any oxygen, she's breathing room air.  She is eating about 27 ml of breast milk at each feeding.  I'm pumping for them (although she's the only one eating right now, he's on lipids) and the nurses store it in a fridge there in the NICU.  At least she (and eventually he) are getting the "good stuff" from me when I can't be there to feed them.  They both were on photo-therapy lights for the last couple days, but their biliruben went down, so they are done with that right now.  We get to feed and hold (and kiss and love) A a lot, which is amazing, but its so hard not to hold her brother.  He had an umbilical IV put into his belly button when he was on the vent and until they take it out we can't hold him.  Its in an artery and apparently if it gets pulled out he can hemmorage (sp?).  We don't want to take that chance.  

I'm having a hard time with them being there.  I know they need to be there until they are strong enough to breath/eat well, but it kills me.  They are 6 days old today and I want them HOME.  The house is lonely without them and I feel like I just cry all evening after we leave them.  In fact, I know I do.  Hardest thing ever.  Pumping is tough because it reminds me of my babies that are currently being cared for by someone else.  Tough pill to swallow.  Please keep the 4 of us in your prayers.  For M & A to make lots of great progress in the next couple days (and hopefully come home) and for Momma and Daddy to be strong while they are in there.  M and I are beside ourselves waiting for them.  I hope all of this seems like a blip in time in just a few short weeks, but for now its the hardest thing we've ever done.