We went to Bed Bath & Beyond today after church and picked up a new scale. I excitedly hopped on when we got home and just about lost my lunch. I weigh as much as I did when I was 8.5 months pregnant with twins. Fuck. I've gained 30lbs in the last 12 months. Fuck. I'm completely disgusted. I ran into a friend at Target yesterday and she almost walked right by me. She told me she almost didn't recognize me. I thought it was because my hair was different. Pretty sure its because my face has rounded out. I knew I'd gained weight by the way I look in pics and the way my clothes fit (or don't fit), but THIRTY pounds? How embarrassing. Its not like I had room to gain BEFORE pregnancy, so 30lb on top of that is just sickening.
The good news is, my motivation kicked in just as spring is rolling in. I can get outside with the babies and work it out. M's used to be a trainer, so he's working on a plan for me. I'm ready. I've never been thin, but its never bothered me. It bothers me now. I look fat. I'm ok looking curvy, I'm not ok looking fat. I don't feel good, I don't look good, its time for a change. With that, here we go! I'll try and post updates on my progress and some before/after pics as I go. Wish me luck!
You can do this! I like what you said about the curves. You pull off curves like no one I've seen.
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